three days!

dress rehearsal was this afternoon. i wore pajamas.

a friend of mine is loaning me one of her dresses. it is a sportlobster dress- red like a lobster and shiny like a sports-car. i feel like a motherfucking habanero pepper.

i have to remind myself that this semester i learned an entire bach concerto in addition to brahms' liebeslieder. i can do this.

if i write this things on The Internet, i might remember them in the heat of the moment. this is shop talk.
small notes are the energy -- every note is an event.
shape with harmonic motion in mind.
every note is an event.
voice the top too loudly to stand out against the orchestra, especially.
hear registral changes in the bach.
don't make faces.
don't apologize.
every note is an event.
dig into the left hand gestures in the schumann.
take time with cadences.
i know the notes.
i know the notes.
i know the notes.

and i'm a motherfucking habanero pepper.